Happy Father's Day Daddy!

There are all different kinds of father's in the world and I think a father's role gets overlooked. It takes a very special man to be an amazing dad. Women kind of get a head start when it comes to being a parent-- they feel love as soon as they take that first pregnancy test.

A father's love build and builds until the day his child is born and then he explodes with love. I know this because my own dad always refers to the day I was born and the love he felt for me. It must of been real love because my mom was in labor with me for 36 hours and I was the ugliest newborn baby ever.

Aside from that, I spent mornings watching my dad get ready for work,and I have fond memories of him blasting music in our living room and dancing with us, to humming me to sleep every night as a little girl. A tune I now hum to my children.

Girls especially, well... me especially... didn't make being a father any easier on my dad. I always say I am responsible for all his gray hair because of the things I have done, the boys I brought home for him to meet, and crazy life choices I was "so sure were the right ones".

Throughout it all, no matter how bad things were, or how terrified I was to tell him something, he has always stood beside me, supporting me, and helping me find a way to make things better. He has never judged me or loved me any less because of it.

My dad is a father who has gone even further than above and beyond not just for me, but for his whole family. It's his driving force in life and means more to him than anything else. I want my dad to know that he means more to me than anything else and I can't even imagine who I would be today if I didn't have his constant advice and unbelievable work ethic and love for his family. My dad doesn't just talk about life and the way things should be, he is an amazing example of what it takes to be a wonderful dad.

I feel incredibly blessed and so lucky to have such an incredible dad and a strong sense of faith and family! I love you so much, Daddy! Happy Father's Day to an upstanding MAN and FATHER!!!

It's been quite a while since I have blogged and there is good reason for that. Let's just say life doesn't always follow the path we set for ourselves, or we end up following the path other people are on and like I told a friend of mine, all that does is lead us somewhere we were never supposed to be in the first place and we have to start completely over again.

Some people have a very lucid idea of what their life holds for them starting in high school. They know exactly what college they are going to, what they will study, and even what kind of job they will get when they graduate, maybe even who they will marry how many children they will have and so on...

Me-- I've never really known. I wasn't even sure I wanted kids until I found out I was pregnant with my son, Sean. Then again with my daughter, Layla. Life has a funny way of deciding for us. I am completely blessed life threw me those curve balls because it was the most amazing twist in my haphazard idea of a plan.

There comes a time when we have to stop letting life decide and we need to take control back and decide for ourselves. We need to make things happen for ourselves instead of just letting things happen to ourselves.

I've had to make some crazy hard decisions lately, decisions that are a result of me taking control of my own life back. It is the scariest thing I've ever done, but I've never been more sure that what I'm doing is right.

People in general have a way of making you question yourself and your character. I've come to the conclusion that life itself doesn't suck, people suck... some people anyway, and if you surround yourself with the right kind of people, life can be amazing and inspiring and good. There are still honest, loving, and loyal people in the world, you just have to weed out the assholes and find them. Unfortunately, there are crazy uphill battles we go through in order to figure out who is really standing besides us.

But the good ones will be the ones that offer a helping hand or a kind embrace without expecting anything in return. They will be the ones who offer objective advice and supportive actions and who will stick it out with you no matter how bad or uncomfortable things get. And when they do get bad, they are the ones calling you everyday to make sure you are okay.

People do things with all kinds of intentions and motives. Emotion drives peoples decisions instead of logic sometimes. And there is always a time and place for everything. There is a time when emotion needs to be taken into consideration and then a time when he needs to be pushed aside.

Only I know what is right and best for me, and that may not be what is right or best for someone else, but it's my life and no matter what anyone says, or what anyone does, nobody can take that from me!